The greatest gift

I know people talk about you have never really known how true happiness and love is until you have a child. But honestly you will never know how true that is until you have one. I have talked God and asked why wouldn't he give everyone this joy. I love when Aydan wakes up and all he does is smile. When I come home all he does is just laughs for me and we wrestle. Sometimes I can start crying because I realize what all I am missing since I am working. I always pray for Aydan's food and always mention about his dad staying here in America forever but now I have added for his dad to stay in America forever so that his mommy can stay at home forever. But I feel like this is still Gods will and I am at peace. I still cry sometimes about leaving Aydan even though he is with mom and in good hands. And sometimes I still cry about things with Mariano's immigration but I can't tell you how many times God has sent a song my way to encourage me.