Thursday, and still counting

Well today is day 13 until our 6 months are over with. Hopefully this trial will be over with! Mariano called me today to let me know that he was okay. He survived the earthquake and I am like what!?!?! Earthquake??? Where??? When??? Everybody okay??? Not really a phone call that you are expecting but he said that he got woken up this morning around 2:25. He said that the walls shook, his bed shook against his wall and he didn't know what was going on. And then it was peaceful. He said nothing was damaged but Honduras had an earthquake, 7.1 to be exact and it reached into Guatemala and Nicaragua. No major damage except in Honduras. But Mariano said it scared him because it was loud and he thought that this was the end. But thank the Lord he is okay!!! No one was hurt....but I can tell by the tone in Mariano's voice that he was really scared!!!
So our trip to Guatemala, I was wanting to go over for Father's Day regardless, but talking to Mariano he wants us to wait until we hear an answer. So I called Patrick McHenry's office again and see if they had heard anything. They haven't!!!! Hello that is my tax money paying for your job too!!! But....he did tell me that he did know of cases that went beyond the 6 months. David is the guys name but he said that they will not respond to inquiries unless something has changed. The last message we got was that we would hear an answer in 6 months. So I guess we will wait 13 more days. I emailed the paralegal working on our case and she is out all this week so I will talk to her next week.
So.....I did something today for the first time. Not really the first time but I guess I really don't know how to do it with my condition. I hear talk that when you fast from food that your belly is really hungry!!! Well I have tried fasting before, and I fasted and I prayed during that time but I never got hungry. So I have always felt like I didn't really fast even though the intentions were there. So since Mariano has been gone, as far as fasting from food, I haven't done that. I have given up reading books unless they are pertaining to something devotional. I told Mariano that he had to hurry and get back because I had a list of books that I am wanting to read but can't until he gets back. That is just the little something that I wanted to give up. So today, I felt like there just might be a saint or two that would fast on Mariano's behalf because Bro Ken mentioned it last night. I thought that it might be wrong and I felt bad if I ate lunch while other people are fasting for the situation we are in. So I am not eating lunch....I am getting to a point. I do have sugar, currently not taking anything for it and I don't need preached at. I intend on doing something, not a lot to worry about but if my sugar is high, then I am not hungry. So I kind of feel like I don't get the full fasting thing because I am not hungry. Sure I will be hungry later but not at the time that I usually eat. Has this happened to anyone besides me?
Well I might be going with the youth to Carowinds this year. I just need to find a babysitter for Aydan. I don't know with me trying to go to Guatemala if I should go or not. Not an issue of money just that the money could go somewhere else. And then I am planning on going with my parents for vacation in July. Believe it or not I still discuss the money thing with Mariano and he doesn't care or not. I was shocked that he was shocked that I was wanting to leave Aydan. I don't like to have to leave him considering I am away while at work but he does need to be around other people. So I have til Sunday to make a decision. Should I take him along, I think that he would be good but would get bored and he is at an age where he can ride rides now so I think that he would want to ride a ride......something to pray about.
Also....I love that people are burdened for our situation but sometimes I think it gets blown out of proportion compared to the other trials that our brothers/sisters are going thru. I don't want our situation to be the top priority because others need the attention. I mean we have Dawn's situation, Kelly is facing an affliction, Tonya has an affliction, Ryan needs prayer right along with his family. I know that we could never equally distribute the burden but I don't want everyone focusing on our problem. I want these other ones that are facing trial to be brought to the Lord in prayer just as much if not more. I do get tired of requesting prayer, and I admit that they're are times when I get down and pray and say God, you know exactly what I am about to say, it is the same message for the past 6 months. God, would you like to hear it again???
Well I have come to a conclusion about going to Guatemala. I have been going over and over again with Mariano that the money could be put to use somewhere else other than buying plan tickets for Aydan and I. But I got to thinking yesterday that Mariano is going to have to say goodbye to his family. And even though he can go and see them when he wants to I know that it will be hard. I am tempted to say that his Mom just might do a medical fit to have him stay there. That is her only boy. Mariano's mom lost a little boy, she was actually raped and the boy died like when he was 5 or 6 in his sleep so she has seen some hard time in her life. I also know that even though Mariano might have a stamp in his passport to come back that he will be a little frightened to go thru customs. So he needs me.....plus it will be a good bonding time to start out with Aydan and it will feel good to finally be the girl that gets to snuggle beside their companion on a 3 hour airplane flight!!! Every time I have had to sit where someone is nice and snuggle and I have Aydan across my lap!!!