This is Aydan's new pajama set!!! At least new to him! A friend from work has been giving me her hand-me-downs and this was one of them! Thy are pajamas set and she cut the feet part out and made it into a Halloween costume but Aydan loves it just as it is.


This picture was taken at out Company's picnic. Aydan is trying to dry out and also put the towel around him. He gets an A for effort!!!
Aydan would not eat the corn on the cob. He doesn't even like just plan ole corn OFF the cob. So I talked him into holding the corn on the cob and pretending like he was eating. He was cooperative for ONE picture!!!

Sonrisa...Hoy es Viernes!

Smile, it is FRIDAY!!!

Tonight got Aydan's pictures with his pants that his Abuelo made for him. Probably will come back home and tidy up some. Still praying for a phone call!!!

Tomorrow - well tonight too I will be cutting out the items that the Sunday School did and will hand out on Sunday. I will be honest with you, I am tired of cutting!!! But now I have had several offers from Aydan but I didn't let him have any scissors. He is in a stage now that whatever I do to him, he must do to me like - cleaning the dirt from his fingernails!!! When I kiss his boo boo he searches my body til he finds something that he can kiss. I LOVE IT!! But that isn't the topic - need to go to Sam's and purchase chicken, dog food for Chiquita and I had other things that I need to buy but can't think of them.

Youth camp is a week away - found out like two days ago that someone was planning on me being there and I had no plans of going. So I felt bad for them because it kind of messed up their planning - so now I am going. I need to call Penny and see if I can get a room. I did have a project for that weekend so maybe some of it will get completed and some will not.

All day meeting is like 5 weeks away - wow! Camp meeting after that!!!

Summer is gone in three weeks - NO!!! I love the summer and really didn't get to take a SUMMER VACATION!!!

Wacky Wednesday

Today is passing by quickly and is crazy at work! But I love it when it is crazy because I am calm about and what gets done, gets done. While others run around like a chicken with their heads cut off! I just sometimes sit back and laugh within myself!

So I got a new face book account, feel free to look me up but it is hard to keep up and there are so many things going on that I am lost! Still haven't quite figured out is I am posting things on my wall or if they are going to someone else's wall! So I don't know! Maybe I can find time to sit down and figure it out soon!

Still no news on Mariano! He did call to say that he had a dream about me! I was immodest in front of him and his dad and Mariano was trying to figure out why! What a dream!!! I wasn't naked either!

Brought Chicken Salad today at work. Haven't at out at all this week!!! Hold on a minute while I pat myself on the back...okay I am back now! I had to do both shoulders! So getting ready to get my lunch and my work had lunch catered in for a few things and they had an extra plate. Offered it to me! Lovely country hamburger!!! So it was good and free to me so I will accept!

Just to let everyone know! I HATE THE DEVIL!!! HATE HIS CUNNING WORKS, HIS DECEITFULNESS AND EVERYTHING ASSOCIATED WITH HIM!!!

Trying to be perky....

I don't like being down at work or even being down at all but sometimes it is just hard to be uplifting to others. I went in the canteen today and was heating my food up and someone hollered my name. It was a friend and she came over to me. Her daughter and son in law are going through the same situation as Mariano and I are. She came to tell me that her daughter and son in law was at the airport as we were speaking trying to find a flight home because he got approved to come back from the states. So I was happy for them because I don't wish this upon no one as far as the trial comes. I think they have like 2 kids together. So I come back to my desk and just cry. Sometimes I am glad that I am the only in up here that stays in for lunch because I don't want people seeing this side of me. But my flesh is screaming out WHY??? Why couldn't my trial be only 2 months? Why can't that be me that is at the airport waiting on stand by to come home WITH my husband?? Why can't it be us to be walking through the airport hand in hand trying to close an end to a chapter in our lives and celebrating victory??

Doesn't look like a good day...

After my $3 special yesterday at a yard sale, I have an itch to go yard selling but it is gloomy outside. Yesterday I stopped at a yard sale, got 5 pieces of clothing (tops & bottoms outer wear), a pair of flip flop dress shoes ( LOVE THEM!!!) and Aydan a vegetale divided plate for the grand price of $3! I was ecstatic!

Have a lot to do today, wanted to mow grass but that it out of the picture. Need to get groceries, make a trip to the church because I forgot the Sunday School thing that we did and I told the kids that I would have them ready for tomorrow! Need to go and get the Sunday School thing laminated so that it will hold up better. Saft's picnic is today from 2-8 and there is alot of things planned. Some nice gifts too! I know one of the big prizes is a laptop...Lord you want to work in that direction? I wouldn't complain!!

So I am bummed out about youth night!!! Tonight is youth night at our church. But I had already had obligations 2 months ago so when I saw it on the calendar I was like AW!

I took this picture when we were over there the last time. After looking at this I was thankful that we only one or two flies in the house every now and then. I thought it was disgusting but the flies were horrible there!!!!


Remember the earth quake that happened like 3 or so months ago. It started in Honduras which borders Guatemala. Mariano said that it woke them up during the night and was a loud sound. So when he got up he saw that this crack when all around his room. But wow! Something that could do that from so far away!!! But it is great to know that Mariano could call on God.

I missed it....

We had a hot dog lunch today for a woman that works out on the floor and she is deaf. She actually had one of her fingers cut off a long time ago at Saft and it is said because it is her pointer finger and you use all of your fingers when you communicate with sign language. So she had to have steel rods put in her fingers, not for sure why but she has been out of work. So some people got together and did a dinner for her. So I am trying not to get out to eat but it was for a good cause $4 a plate for 2 hot dogs with all the fixings, bag of chips and a desert. Wasn't bad either. So I come back to my desk, take a bite and my phone starts vibrating. Missed phone call, buy I have a voice mail. Mariano... AND I MISSED IT!!! I left my phone there and usually I carry it around just in case, but I was planning on calling him today at lunch so I didn't take it. So I started crying, and I thought please Lord don't let anyone come around me!!! No one did so he ended up calling back and I got up and went to a conference room where no one was around and just bawled. He was in good spirits though and was trying to comfort me but didn't help. But we were talking about how neither one of us never thought that it would drag out this long and Lord only knows how long it will be in the end.

But we got off on a good note and my hotdogs were good. The coleslaw was good and I usually fishy about those kind of things. So let's get up and get revived for revival tonight!!! I could just sit all day and listen to Bro Nathan talk. I love his accent. Sometimes he is kind of hard to understand but think of when our people go over there and what they go through. Especially if you are southern like we are!

Wellness Screening

Saft sponsored a Wellness Screening yesterday and today. I was laughing yesterday at some of the people because one was told that he was obese!! He had never been told that and he was claiming that after that he needed to go to the doctor for medicine to treat his depression. So it was hilarious...so my turn today!!! No laughing coming from me, in a way I am laughing. I wasn't called obese but was told it wouldn't hurt to loose some weight. Which I already knew!!! But I am looking at it that I didn't have to pay $35 for someone to tell me that. It was free to me! Sugar was higher than what it should have been. Blood pressure...116/82. I think that is good compared to the normal 120/80. She tells me that I need to watch my blood sugar. I wanted to say Honey, my husband has been gone for almost 9 months and I don't know when he is coming home so if my bottom number is 2 points higher, NO BIG DEAL!! But I thanked her and went on my little marry way.
Something that did make me happy was that since I have had Aydan, ( I know that has been over 2 years BUT...) I have lost 28 lbs. So I will try to continue to loose weight. Why does it seem to be so easy to gain but 10 times as hard to lose!!! And then when you see people just pig out and pig out and then go back for thirds and they have no fat nowhere!!! Life just isn't fair!!!
But God is still in control!!! Revival this coming weekend! Still looking forward to it. I did something in Sunday School that I think the kids will like so I have to finish that up this weekend. They need to be laminated so they will be more durable but I liked it.
Mariano is doing great. Things have calmed down between his mother and him. Chapito who is Mariano's son was chosen for something similar like a Homecoming King & Queen last year. Mariano never got to see pictures but yesterday they picked the new couple for 2009 and Chapito had to escort the girl. Mariano go to go and see and he was proud. I think it really meant alot to Chapito too! And yes I had to ask if Chapito's mom was there...sorry but I did. And yes she was to which Mariano said he didn't talk to her because he knew that people would really start to talk. But I just told Mariano that when I knew a relationship was ending with someone, I always wanted to walk away with a closure that if we met up in the future that we could talk as friends. If Mariano and I ever split up, and Lord help us if we did after all we have been through, but Lord willing that will not be a trial that we will have to discuss. I am getting off the topic, but to have a child with someone and not be able to talk at all unless we do it over the phone. I thought that was said and my heart went out to Chapito because he has never seen his parents talk to one another unless it was over the phone but he never will. I think Mariano has rights to talk to her as long as I know about it because I would want those rights too if I was in that situation.
I also think of two people that I work with who have gone through recent divorces with children. And all they do is argue. And these two people were married for like 10-15 years. How do you get to that point where you can't hold a descent conversation in front of your children. So of course I bring this up while talking to one and they claimed 'the other party' started it. All I said was you don't have to answer or egg the situation on...but I think that is really sad. Sorry but I would be so disgusted with myself and Mariano if we had to split up after 15 years. That would be like wasted years to me.
That is my story for today.....

Forgive me....

I know I haven't posted but I have been really busy with different things going on in my life. Friday night went and hung out with my intern for the summer. She moved to Charlotte on Sunday so we went out and did some things. Really great time and I had Aydan. Kind of felt weird because that was the first time that I 'hung out with friends' and had a kid!!! But he was great that evening and he was the only kid.

Saturday had the picnic. Was planning on being there sooner but Mariano called and was down about how things went with his mom. The devil can be so deceiving!!! Not talking bad about Mariano but this would go for anyone who hasn't been in a church service for 8 months or so but it is so easy to get spiritually week. I have thought about all three times that we were over there, the one time that Bro Ken went we did have a thought from him. But if I go over again and anyone goes with me, I would like to have a church service. I believe it would really encourage Mariano. So plans are now, finishing paying off the last trip and wait for an answer. I was going to say wait patiently but I am not very good at that! So when we get an answer and Lord willing it will be he is coming home, depending on how the finances are at that time depends on if Aydan and I will go and bring him home. That has always been the plan but some other maintenance items have come into play. So Mariano and I have agreed to pray about that. Mariano wants me to stay at his house and I believe I could do that but he doesn't see my side of eating the foods. So I worry about that and of Aydan eating the food. So lots to pray about...I did say jokingly that Mariano couldn't make me come over there!!!! So but we do miss him and hopefully in a few months we will hear an answer!!!

I miss our Saturday morning snuggling times!!! Miss our talks at night! Miss rubbing his cheek with my hand or when we are in an embrace, miss feeling his cheek against mine!!! Okay, enough!!!

I am looking forward to revival. I like to hear Bro Nathan talk. I would love to meet his family! Mariano really like him too! So it will be good

Saft's Annual Picnic is this Saturday. I chose not to help this year because I wouldn't have anyone to watch Aydan all day and I wanted to spend sometime with him. So they do give away good prizes so I am always eager to have those!! Last year I won $100 in gas. It was a God send because the very next week gas went up to like $4 and was hard to find so that came in really handy!

I do want to thank God that I found my battery charger!!! Thought that I had left it in Guatemala and I didn't know when Mariano would have time to go there and check. But Saturday for the picnic, I drove the truck and ended up finding the charger in the dash!!! So I was thankful because the battery was dead and haven't been able to take any pictures of Aydan and send to Mariano. So I brought the camera today to put pictures on my work computer, change my pic on my desktop and post some pic. Also, finally got a facebook account but it has nothing on it yet. So I will work on that, but I forgot to get the cord to hook to the tower!!! So no pictures today.

I have picked out a few songs that I want to get together and learn. Some have been really encouraging to me. With that being said I do want to thank the Lord that Nathan Dezio did get saved! Some of us go together the other night and we did some singing and it was really nice. Just like old times!!! I was talking to Mariano and I told him that I felt like I had contributed to the way Nathan chose to go because I was not the 'Child of God' like I should have been. I got influenced and I have guilt. I feel like some of the youth that were there when I was growing up that if I had been the young person that God had wanted me to be that some would still be there today! It is so important to be what God wants us to be. Not because we will go to hell if we disobey but we never know the impact that it will have on others. And looking back, I never thought that some of the youth around me would turn away from God. But if I could have been the strong one and spent time with them then some of the scars would not be there! To some I do feel like I owe them an apology and I pray that God allows me to make those at the right time. It could open a door up so who knows. But I am thankful for the one that did make it right!!! I know it was a relief to his family and his sister!!! And who knows maybe he can get someone else to get back and get straight with God!!!!

Change of subject: I did ask the question but I believe God laughed and shook his head, but the question I asked was can I move the picture below from my "WANT LIST" to my "NEED LIST" (up there with Mariano!).

No I am not going to buy it. One of my friends is looking at but I thought it looked really sweet and it is YELLOW!!!

We can do it, we can do it, we can do it!

I love it!

Money, choices, costly decisions.....TEETH

or should I say tooth. So a few months ago, I had a blister like bubble come up on my gum. It went away, came back, left, decided to pop out again and so forth. Never had any pain with it so I got curious. Looked it up on the Internet and seemed to be a abscess in the gum. WOW! Never had one of those before and all I knew was that they were painful. So decided to meet with the dentist to see what is going on. I was going to wait until my 6 month cleaning in Oct but thought it might get worse. Kind of glad I did though.....I guess when they were handing out teeth that I got impatient and didn't collect all of my permanent teeth. I have a few teeth in my mouth that are still baby teeth. These baby teeth aren't small and you couldn't really tell unless you had xrays to see where the roots are much smaller than the permanent ones. So anyways----a nerve has died and the 'dead' tissue around the tooth is infected and is swelling out. Sounds nice, so I am in the chair thinking that I might want to start crying because we might have to pull it. Kind of like you start having pain and the devil tells you it is cancer, kind of like how we always jump to the worse conclusions. So here are my options:

1) pull the tooth, get an implant which more than likely insurance will not cover. The oral surgeon gives FREE consultation but I only believe it is free because of the final bill charge!!! An implant would be a metal piece they would put in my gum and then cap it! For a couple of thousands of dollars - Yes or NO Answer: NO

2) pull the tooth or should I say 'extract the tooth' and place a bridge between the teeth so that my teeth will not start leaning and I could possibly loose the two back jaw teeth. All for the price of me paying out of my pocket $1000. Yes or No Sure, I 'll just pull put the $1000 bill! Umm. Don't think so so the answer is no. Next option.

3) Root canal - OUCH!!! Doesn't sound good, really all of them do not sound good so why me Lord!!! Did you forget that I am still paying on my Guatemalan trip and am eager on going on another trip!! Possibly to bring my husband back home with me!!! It is all for a reason - Right??? Care to feel me in God??? Cause I would like an answer...so the tooth that needs a root canal is baby tooth. Most insurances do not cover root canal on baby teeth because insurance looks at it as you are going to loose the tooth anyways so why bother. I can see their point however I do not have a permanent tooth underneath it so I will be a tooth short and I would die if I had to loose a tooth, or even to have to wear dentures!!! Oh Jesus please help me! So this option is for $208 which is more than I would like to spend but the cheapest. However it seems like we should go this route but because the baby roots are not firmed up like the other roots because they are not long enough. I have always known that since we found out that I was missing some permanent teeth, that these baby teeth can come loose anytime and I will have a whole in my mouth. So should we take the chance of paying $208 and hope that the tooth doesn't come out anytime soon. Dentist can't guarantee that it will happen... CHOICES, Expensive CHOICES!!!

So what would you do??? Kind of complicated because if I pay the two hundred dollars and loose the tooth because it is a baby tooth at the end of the year, I am going to be upset. But I don't want one pulled neither do I want to pay the thousand dollars. With that being said, next Tuesday at 3:00 I will be having my first root canal and I believe I might start crying in the chair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't want to have to go through with this!!! It is awful and it is unfair! Please give me some drugs and knock me out til it is time to go back to work!!!